As with everyone else out there, I want to get faster and stronger. So, I sucked it up today, tried to steady my nerves, tried to put my fear aside and met up for a no-drop group ride. Because that is the safest way to start, right? Pushing myself to keep up with a group, but no getting dropped. I knew it would be very challenging for this endurance pace girl. I know I'm not super fast.
Going into it I figured best case scenario I would be able to hang on the back, worst case scenario people have to wait for me. But, guess what happened? Wish I could say I hung right in there. Nope... I got dropped. Yep. I'm so slow that I get dropped on a no-drop ride.
And then I cried. Yes, I cried while driving home because I was frustrated and embarrassed and feeling down on myself. I was mad and sad and insert other feelings. I know I need to push myself to improve, but it sucks. It sucks always being the slowest. It sucks getting left behind.
Right now I am frustrated. But I am determined to get faster and stronger.
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- TriShannon
- Colorado, United States
- It seems as though I've gone and done it again. Another Ironman is in my future... Coeur d'Alene 2009. The adventure never ends.
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- Chilly Cheeks Duathlon: 1/17
- Chilly Cheeks Duathlon: 2/28
- Tri X Anglesea: 3/29
- Tri4Me Sprint Triathlon: 4/25
- Colorado Mini Marathon: 5/3
- Longmont Sprint Triathlon: 5/17
- Boulder Stroke & Stride: 6/4
- Ironman Coeur d'Alene: 6/21
- 5430 Long Course: 8/9
- Harvest Moon Triathlon: 9/12
- Crescent Moon Triathlon: 9/19
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7 comments:
First of all -- good for you for putting yourself out there!
It does suck, no question.
But determination goes a very long way! With your commitment you will get faster and stronger. And there'll be lots of people cheering you on as you do.
Go to the same group again. You've got the stuff to show that group you're willing to ride. Keep it up.
It is tough to go from riding alone to riding in a group - the effort and skill is very different. Next time you ride, just focus on the wheel in front of you - not the scenery, not the rider, just the next wheel. Later you can work on group riding skills and such, but to start just keep that wheel close!
You will get faster and you will have tears of joy!
At least you had the cojones to 'get out there'....which maybe will inspire even-slower gals like me to do the same :-)
Hi Shannon,
I looked for you at Harvest Moon but didn't see you. However, I did see your results and the are awesome. Congrats. Looking forward to seeing your race report. How did you feel about running on cement??? I think it suc _ _ ed;
Kristen
I agree - putting yourself out there is a huge step. There have been so many times that I was afraid, but determined. Hanging with faster people, made me faster. Now granted, you are much faster than I am ;), but I think it's the same kind of thing.
BTW - how was your road bike on the CdA course? I'm trying to decide on sticking with my roadie (12-28, compact) or getting a tri bike. I'm currently trying to get more comfy on my roadie in the clip ons and it's painful.
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